True submission

P has been writing diaries to me since the middle of February this year. Each one has developed and been a remarkable record of her progress as a submissive. I was browsing some of them last night and came across one she wrote to me on 02.03.09. There was a paragraph she quoted from another submissive to his Mistress. His words are relevant for all sub's regardless of their gender and who their D is. Reading them again brought home just what P's path is all about. I don't even know if she remembers the words but I can only hope that she still feels the same way....

"True submission to me is about yielding, not blindly, but in genuine desire to sacrifice something to the woman you are devoting yourself. For me, this sacrifice in pride or ego, in doing something you do not perhaps want or enjoy but that she does, is what submission means to me. It is about giving yourself, body and mind, over, out of self-less devotion to pleasure genuinely the other. This invariably means in part that you will be used, something that has such a negative connotation in our society, but it is a using none the less--one born again from devotional commitment to give yourself over to another for their selfish use of you and to selflessly please them, mind and body alike. It is about redirecting your own thoughts away from your own ego to hers, to be open to be moulded for her by her and regardless of want or desire, to yield to her needs, lovingly and obediently. For me, this new awaking of true submission has had a profound impact upon me and has afforded a deeper level of intimacy than I would have ever believed possible. To open yourself up to vulnerability and humiliation in doing acts you find deeply degrading even for the woman you love and want to devote yourself to, coming in time to crave such acts for her amusement and pleasure is true submission. It is not when you wish it, or how you wish it, or how you want it modified. It is not about your terms, but yielding to the terms of another. This is not, of course, to say you follow blindly in doing something genuinely dangerous or life threatening, but in sacrificing your ego over to hers and being that object of devotional gratification for her, utterly and completely selflessly."