Mission accomplished

I am back after my weekend with P.  I will elaborate further in future posts but decided to give a quick taster of our time together.  I was able to instigate servitude training with P on Friday night where she served me as I availed myself of her most welcome of facility, a bath.  It is one of the things I adore, a long luxuriating bath full of scented bubbles.  She had to constantly attend to my every whim and I admit to enjoying this side of dominance immensely.  I discovered she gives lovely foot massages.  On Saturday, P completed the reassigned task to my satisfaction.  She was still on a touching ban and pantyless for the day.  Around this, we enjoyed the simple pleasure of girly shopping.  But the secret undertone of shopping with my Hussy was definitely arousing and I was spoilt rotten by her.  She took some photos of me in various costume changes and I hope to be able to post them when they are edited.  In the evening, she was punished for the late diary and the slate wiped clean.  As promised, I rewarded her.  Today I returned home and although I am tired, I am very content and feel very proud of my Hussy.  She is going to become a very obedient and attentive submissive.  And I feel very privileged to have been given her precious gift of submission.  I will cherish it always.

Countdown

Not the TV programme although the music could be appropriate!  We are both, literally, on a countdown.  It's no longer weeks, or days but hours.  One more sleep then I will be on the road in the morning.  Every minute on the road, every mile covered will be a mile and a minute nearer.  I want the seconds to be minutes and minutes to be hours so that our time together will never end.  But unless we have a TARDIS (nice but unlikely!), time will pass as it should and forty eight hours will quickly pass.  We shall cram so much into it, not just D/s.  The most important thing is to spend quality time together.  Time to share, laugh, breathe and love together.  Our RL relationship won't be neglected.  Saturday is already planned with a shopping trip, part of which is her reassigned task that she couldn't complete last weekend due to illness.  This time I shall be observing, making sure she sticks to her task and this time I can actually hear what she says.  Nothing like a good bit of girly shopping including adult shops!  Of course, P shall be on a no panties rule so that kind of shopping just reinforces the whole experience, while I smile and glow with pride that I am out with my Hussy.  Even just going round IKEA will take on a whole new meaning for us.  So tonight I shall go to sleep with a certain peace in my heart, and a fluttering tummy at the anticipation of what is to come.  What I will do with her, how I will do, when and for how long.  To have her serve me, submit to me, love me.  This time not just in the privacy of her own home, but in public albeit hidden to most.  How wonderful, our little secret from the world.

Head space

It's only three days until I travel to be with my Hussy for the weekend.  48 hours of bliss.  I will say that the D/s side won't take up all our time, well quite a bit, but our RL relationship is more important and I will make sure that this isn't overlooked or neglected.  But mentally preparing for the weekend is something both of us need to do.  I have just issued P with her instructions for the weekend.  They range from mentally and physically preparing herself to making sure the house is how I want it.  This is important for me as it makes her get into the right head space.  I will be ensuring she doesn't forget my presence in the house either before, during or after my visit.  I shall be making my own preparations.  Clothes, toys, tasks, planning and my own physical appearance.  I shall be preening and shaving so that I can give P something to aspire to.  Something for her to try and attain.  Of course there is an element of failure in all of this.  My instructions strive to indoctrinate her.  Mentally, getting into my own head space will enable me to dominate her from the first second we're together, if I so wish.  I like to add the element of surprise.  It adds to the excitement and I'm sure P will be in a semi state of constant arousal from now until we meet.  She won't know how I'm going to be until I decide.  I may appear to be calm and placid yet she knows that underneath, at any given moment, I can instruct her to do something, change her appearance, serve me, submit to my will.  She knows there is outstanding punishment for last week.  She knows she has her task reassigned to the weekend in my full presence.  She knows all this and it will help to ensure she adopts the right frame of mind.  I shall be ready to take her by the hand and bend her to my will.  And I can't wait...

Task reassinged

My Hussy was due to complete her last task on Saturday but as she was ill, she was unable to do so.  As I am visiting P at the weekend, I informed her that she will do the task in my presence.  Originally P was to go into Ann Summers and purchase an erotic novel for me telling the cashier that she was buying it for her Lady as she liked to read it while she serviced me.  I have now embellished the task.  We will visit a couple of shops together and I will choose an item that I can use on P and also an item for my own pleasure.  P will pay for them and when she does, she will tell the cashier that the items are for her Lady's pleasure.  I will be within earshot to ensure she doesn't fail.  I have given her an incentive to perform the task well and to my satisfaction.  The lure of reward.  Of course what form that reward takes will be of my own choosing.  We have sourced a couple of good adult shops in the city where she lives and take advantage of the nearby shopping centre too.  So we can spend some of Saturday doing what girls do best shopping!  But in the best kink way.

Temporary Relief

Hussy has had a rollercoaster, emotional week.  Although I haven't posted it here, she posted on Thursday on FetLife how broken she felt.  I have taken her to her lowest point and she has pulled herself up onto her knees and carried on.  She is stronger than she thought.  Yesterday she should have completed her final task amongst the many I set as part of her punishment.  Sadly she text me to say she was having a migraine attack, had been sick and couldn't go out.  She stayed in bed most of the day until she felt well enough to eat, drink and come online to chat to me later.

When I consider all the tasks she has completed, despite the photography/laptop fiasco on Tuesday night, she has successfully achieved all other goals set.  Her lines were sent on time and I received them on Wednesday, she posted her self punishment article on Wednesday on FetLife and emailed my diary early on Friday night.  Her diary was illuminating, totally honest and reassured me that she was strong enough to cope with all that had happened during the last week.

I am not cruel, well not sadistically cruel.  I do like to inflict but I'm not here to abuse her.  I'm here to guide my Hussy and sometimes that involves punishment for her own good.  But it's all done out of my love for her and she knows this.  One thing it has done is make her realise what she really wants.  She wrote in her last diary "This is what I want, You as my Lady is what I want and what I need.  You fulfil an aspect of me that I never fully realised was there.  I had suspicions, but a spot of kink in a vanilla relationship is vastly different to the levels You have taken me to in Your Chamber.  I now realise more than ever how much strength it takes to submit, to give away control, to trust someone else so completely."  As I read the diary with a sense of pride she concluded with "I want to serve You, to honour You, to give You a reason to have pride in me.  You give me reason.  My failings are great but I know that You are ready to teach me, prepared to be patient with me, to mould me into something fitting of You."  I can't really ask for anything more of my Hussy than that.

So from this moment on, her ban is lifted.  Until a time and date to be appointed next week so that she can return to her sub mind and prepare for my imminent visit.  In balance, I think lifting the ban will benefit both of us and provide her with even more impetus to serve me to the best of her abilities.

FAO: My Hussy - A very public lecture

I am posting this here for my Hussy to read.  As I have made this public she should appreciate and understand it even more.  I was going to say this in private but decided to post it here to ensure it has the right impact.

You know how deeply disappointed I am following your failure to deliver your weekly diary on time last Friday.  You were sent your instructions two days beforehand.  Also writing me a diary isn't exactly a new concept for you.  You told me on Thursday you were going out with some RL friends and I have no wish to interfere with your RL however I reminded you of your diary deadline as you were going out at 7pm and didn't know what time you would be home.  You said that you would send it on time.  The next day you emailed me to state specifically that you were going home early so you could complete your diary prior to going out.  However, you went out and my inbox remained empty.  You text me about 11pm to say you were on your way home and expected to be punished.  This meant you knew you'd deliberately missed my deadline.  You gave me a reason rather than an excuse, but these are the same thing.  You wanted to send me quality rather than something inferior and decided to miss the deadline to do this.  Eventually I received it 61 minutes late.

You should have informed me on Friday evening when you made this decision to miss my deadline so that I could be forewarned.  It wouldn't have changed the outcome but at least I would have known rather than stare at an empty inbox.  My ire stems not only from the missed deadline but because you told me that you were coming home to make sure the diary was complete and sent on time.  Then you decided not to.  Whatever your reason is not the point.  You decided otherwise.  Let me ask you if this had been one of your pupils who gave you the same reason for not doing homework would you feel any different?  I doubt it.

So I have devised some tasks for you to complete this week.  They are meant to teach you a valuable lesson as my submissive that I will not tolerate lateness with diaries.  Not one minute late let alone 61 with a poor reason attached.  At our e-session I made you punish yourself and denied you orgasm.  You are currently on a touching ban until further notice however you are still expected to do your daily training without any relief afforded to you.  Yesterday you completed your 100 lines and then had problems sending me the photographic evidence.  Not once did you suggest Skype to get round this problem and show them to me on web cam.  I trust they are in the first class post as we speak.  Eventually you managed to workaround the problem and email them to me 12 minutes late.  Tonight you successfully completed the second part of your tasks by posting your e-session punishment experience on FetLife.  I will be asking certain other dominants to read it and possibly comment.

You now have two other tasks to complete by Saturday.  One of which involves posting your experience on FetLife again.  I do not expect any excuse with your diary this Friday.  You have had these instructions since Sunday.  My ire will not be satiated until you have completed your list of tasks.  You need to be taught a stern lesson.  Of course physical punishment still remains until we meet again which is very soon now.  I might start keeping a tally book against you.  But even if I don't you know I always keep score and never lose count.  I know that you are ashamed of failure but you also have to accept your failure, complete your punishment and learn from this.  You need to take more care and attention to deadlines.  I will not accept any reason or excuse just as you wouldn't from one of your pupils.  You must find a way to prioritise yourself when it comes to deadlines and that means working things around your private life.

Believe me Hussy if this happens again, the list of punishments will grow and become worse.  Just for my readership, I am also posting a photo of your completed lines for everyone to see.  Consider this a lecture to you in private, made very public.  When we do meet again I expect complete submissiveness and grateful servitude towards your Lady.

If you can't do the time...

My Hussy failed to deliver her weekly diary on time.  Missed by one hour and one minute.  I was able to administer some long distance punishment via our e-session on Saturday night but her physical punishment is still outstanding until my visit to her in a couple of weeks time.  However in the meantime I can devise a series of mental punishments meant to ensure she knows how disappointed I am in my Hussy.  I sent her an email earlier detailing her tasks and additional punishments.  I haven't had any kind of response yet.  I expect that when she read it, she took a deep intake of breath.  One of her tasks is to post on FetLife by Tuesday night, so if you're a member don't forget to check out the Writings Section for Lady_Xanax's_Hussy.  In fact she has two FetLife posts to complete by the end of the week as well as my usual diary and one other additional punishment.  She is also on a continuous touching ban (apart from her pussy & anal training).  There is no time limit set for this to end.  It's completely at my discretion and she knows this.

I hope that by this weekend, all tasks will be completed, the lesson is suitably learned and I have one very humble and chastised Hussy.  Probably climbing the walls knowing I'm free to pleasure myself as often as I wish.  Well if you can't do the time...